How many times must one person be punished for the same thing?

If you use anger to fight fear you are still angry.

When we " fear " an angry person we fuel their anger.

Fear and anger feed off each other.

Your anger causes others to be fearful.

When FEAR has a power struggle with ANGER there are no winners, only losers. 

You see when something or someone is FEARED, that fear transforms itself into a danger and when a thing or one becomes dangerous there is no hiding from it. Everywhere we go we will see the feared thing or one or we are reminded of it - danger lurks everywhere with paranoia surely setting in. 

Anger on the other hand becomes rage and when one has rage toward a thing or someone- clear thinking is impossible, you become consumed by it, it becomes a flame. Sometimes we just feed that flame continually with our hate.

Sometimes the flame is difficult to extinguish because it is fed by the hurt from him or her who our anger is directed toward. You enjoy punishing someone.

How many times must one person be punished for the same thing?

papajohn

resurrect a word-

Here's a word not often used in today's world;

DIFFICULT  ( http://ardictionary.com/Difficulty/4800)

Difficulty ²

Definition: Something difficult; a thing hard to do or to understand; that which occasions labor or perplexity, and requires skill and perseverance to overcome, solve, or achieve; a hard enterprise; an obstacle; an impediment; as, the difficulties of a science; difficulties in theology.

Difficulty ³

Definition: A controversy; a falling out; a disagreement; an objection; a cavil.

Difficulty ⁴

Definition: Embarrassment of affairs, especially financial affairs; usually in the plural; as, to be in difficulties.

difficulty ⁵

Definition: an effort that is inconvenient; "I went to a lot of trouble"; "he won without any trouble"; "had difficulty walking"; "finished the test only with great difficulty"

difficulty ⁶

Definition: the quality of being difficult; "they agreed about the difficulty of the climb"

difficulty ⁷

Definition: a factor causing trouble in achieving a positive result or tending to produce a negative result; "serious difficulties were encountered in obtaining a pure reagent"

difficulty ⁸

Definition: a condition or state of affairs almost beyond one''s ability to deal with and requiring great effort to bear or overcome; "grappling with financial difficulties"


Life is easy or impossible the way society looks upon challenges in modern times; overcome, obliterate or destroy.

1. These days someone MUST become king of the mountain.

2. These days someone must be " A " ruler.

3. These days someone must take ALL the credit.

How is a MOUNTAIN created from a molehill?

Cannot people see what is true, what is real, what are lies?

Do not be deceived:

a. life can be difficult my friend.

b. life is not impossible to navigate.

c. we can rise up and meet the days     challenges.

d. we don't need another hero.

e. all things done humbly.

DIFFCULT .  .  .  .  .  but not impossible.


papajohn

I have arrived prayer

Everyday day when I awake, when I become concious to the world - I arrive.

I arrive everyday in this world.

May I greet each day, each arrival as it is; something new and adventurous.

I have arrived.

papajohn

emotionally dysfunctional adult

I was born into a DYSFUNCTIONAL family- no doubt. I'm not criticizing this fact, it's an honest observation with a solid " yes " conclusion.

I want to express this blog briefly as I want to write more about it later for the book.

So, I was born into a dysfunctional family most of whom, later on in life accused me of dysfunction and abnormality.

I remember a picture of me when I was 2 yrs old, in a playpen on the front porch where I grew up. (warm weather conditions)

I was told that " I liked being in the playpen" on the front porch- ALONE, so this is how John spent his young years socializing- ALONE in a playpen on the front porch defenseless to the world around me. I was also told that my brother and sister would sneak around and scare me.

This becomes remarkable to me because it explains how and why  I have difficulty even to this day interacting with others. What brought this to light for me was when I watched a PBS program a few years ago which I recently obtained on DVD; "This Emotional LIfe".

I purchased recently "Brain Fitness Frontiers" also a PBS program.

One episode is about a professor who had a stroke and was rendered basically helpless. With the aid of his son who felt strongly that his father needed to go back to learning all the skills an infant and child would process ( start right from the beginning) rather than trying to "pick up" where his father left off before the stroke, his father could recover. AND he did.

Is it possible I submit and would like to further investigate and study to help an emotionally dysfunctional adult in the same manner, that is, to go back and teach him or her OR actually PRACTICE the basic skills of interaction that an infant then a child NEEDS- LOVE and CARE? I believe it's possible for an
emotionally dysfunctional adult to be healed if nurtered by truelly compassionate people using basic skills as I described above.

So, this is my idea as stated today on this blog, June 24th 2011 for further investigation AND I invite anyone who is interested in pursuing said study to contact me, John Bubon; tat2guru@hotmail.com

Now becomes later and then later - later is NOW.

Did you ever wonder why children, say 6, 7, 8 or 9 years old have a tendency to forget LATER what you told them NOW?

Were you ever baffled when someone FORGOT a few days from when you told them something that was very important to you?

In my musing I came to believe that WHY one forgets LATER what we told them NOW is because he or she lives NOW, in the now.

It may not be deliberate forgetting but more to the tune that  something more interesting is happening RIGHT NOW.

And it may offend you but what was important yesterday may not be so important today.

Are we suppose to, or expected to remember EVERYTHING we're told?

Now becomes later and then later - later is NOW. Still, as well, later is now but now IS also before. Remember?

I don't want to be alone but it is alone that I am.

You are so kind to me, your words are kind and you act kind toward me. And how do I repay thee? I am mostly silent with kindness returned only here and there.

I prefer to be in solitude and yet there are times I cry out for some companionship, but to whom do I cry? And then what would I do wouldst you come? How would I act?

I am so perplexed with this human interaction. Who do I trust and how do I trust?

I don't want to be alone but it is alone that I am.

papajohn

But trust I can the rain of GRACE

It is from GRACE, those drops of rain that fall from the skies, that fall from the stars, that fall from the universe and the heavens if it pleases you -  that I receive sanity.

Raindrops of GRACE fall upon me because of my prayers, from the thoughts I raise to the galaxies, GRACE the gift from God, the reward from the Master of Life, honor bestowed upon us from Creator.

I am penetrated by this GRACE, these drops as they fall from the sky,  gently bouncing off my heart and into my soul, a small flowing stream of healing.

And I am healed and I receive this antedote because of the fallen world around me in which these things temporal I cannot trust.

But trust I can the rain of GRACE upon my forehead, the sanity restorer.

papajohn

I am.

Maybe its just that we love ourselves too much, and maybe that's not a bad thing in and of itself. It's not a bad thing until we hurt and we get hurt.

Recovering alcoholics have trouble making sense of things even when things make sense. There is always something, ah, suspicious. So, when we get hurt, emotionally speaking for the most part, the scars left by these injuries blur the human landscape as we see ourselves.

We tend to see ourselves as beautiful, perfect and handsome and there's something about every cell of ours that smiles and gleams happily. That is until we're hurt.

When we've been injured we don't look at ourselves the same, not in a mirror and not in pictures. Sure, we see exactly what is right in front of us- there, that's me or that's you but the image is distorted and sometime too painful to look at.

You couldn't count on us to give you or anyone an accurate description of ourselves because we can't tell you the truth so I guess we tell lies.

We're sure we are being honest with you and ourselves, after all we are honest people? After all we don't make false statements about ourselves, do we?

And when at all possible, if it's possible we tend to hide behind things, nice things, things we own and things we've been given. All the pretty " things " that will distract you, hopefully from seeing the obvious, the wounded, the wounded us. Because if you see our woundedness we would have to explain it and we can't. It hurts too much.

I've recently returned from camping, a quest I had, a journey I experienced - deep into myself, my soul. No distractions, no tv, no radio.

I wanted to look at myself, the real me, the wounded me AND examine it, so I did.

I started out by reading, in one day the book;

" The Mastery of Love " by Don Miguel Ruiz. ( a heart changer).

I finished by coming home with a completely different opinion of myself, a most radical new desciption of myself.

I am a beautiful creature that God, The Master of Life, The Creator poured life into on August 28th, 1958. I am perfect in His eyes. I am lovely in His sight. I am.



papajohn

Lay yourself " bare " before God-

There are times when in order to " overcome " ourselves we need to " BE " ourselves. We need to be in the mood, the attitude to invite the consequences AND accept the consequences as well.

We can for instance practice change to change and this might work, we might PULL it off and we probably will give ourselves the credit.

When we lay ourselves " BARE " before God, our family and our neighbors we have no choice but to seek guidance and strength to change and by CHANGING the way we act and re-act AND to suffer if we have to for our public displays of juvenileness.

We cannot lay claim " a victory " unto ourselves under these conditions. For out of these episodes of exposing our weak selves-  WE GROW and with growth comes maturity and with maturity the ability to admit honestly HOW this came about for us.

Every time we act this way, bearing ourselves honestly and openly we will not only affect our personalities, we will also build a " connection " between ourselves, God and the next situation of testing or trying. This connection, this " joining of the will's " if I may- God's and ours cannot be compromised by honest evaluation and giving due properly the origin of our success.